Tortoise
- The world’s oldest tortoise was called Tu'i Malila.
- Captain James Cook gifted Tu’i Malila to the royal family of Tonga in July 1777.
- The year the Marquis de Sade was arrested and imprisoned in the Vincennes Fortress.
- Also marked the death of Button Gwinnett.
- Consider: Malcolm X was 39 years old when he was assassinated.
- Captain James Cook was 50 years old when Hawaiian natives murdered him.
- My grandmother died when she was 83.
- Consider the ‘immature’ polyp.
- My first cat died when she was 10.
- Tu’i Malila died aged 188, which is older than all of the aforementioned subjects.
Old
- He combed his hair, saw his scalp. Not in a house; in a restaurant toilet.
- A fear began to envelop his body. I’m old, he thought.
- The white of his eye was now actually a dull straw colour, like somebody had urinated in them.
- Just below the eyeball there was a black bag that resembled a fig.
- His teeth had separated. In his youth, he was complimented for his fine teeth.
- You could place a toothpick between each tooth; room to move.
- He took his clothes off and observed his nipples.
- Stay or leave? An indecision that went back to childhood made itself present here in the toilet.
- His eyes filled with tears and he balled up his fists.
- Looking over at the exit door, he thought of his father’s bald patch; how the sun caught it in such a way that it looked like its own little sun.
Weight
- Born by Cesarean section.
- Unconsciously yearning for a traditional birth of passing through a vagina?
- The inability to count, laughed at by children.
- Remarkably good at cutting out shapes, however.
- Leaving home: similar to a Cesarean section, he says.
- Started at 10lbs; a fat toddler; a skinny teenager; middling in his twenties; alcoholic in his thirties.
- Recurring dream: a mountain made of glass, fingers made of glass too.
- The women in his life: mother / Martha / Mildred / Madeline / Melissa / Margaret.
- The houses he lived in: bungalow / apartment / street / Harlem squat / Brownstone / tent.
- Ended life an indeterminate weight.
Poison
- Mental aberrations include: feeling ‘ants’ beneath the skin.
- Worms under the tongue, bugs, lice.
- Hearing voices, music, revolver shots, threats. The tearing off of clothes.
- Thus becoming an inventor, a martyr, a hero.
- Then: forgetfulness.
- Then: morning.
- Then: the year of 1897, in an opium den in Batavia.
- A stable-like room with bare flagstones as flooring, furnished with rows of low wooden bunks.
- Head supported by a small wooden block, a cushion.
- To combat the loss of appetite: the use of an aromatic powder, flavoured with galangal and ginger. Take only a pinch.
Parks
- The boy chased by herons by the faux Swiss chalet.
- The laughter of the elderly. The crumbs in the creases of their trousers.
- The creases of their trousers like hills. Pushing my face into their crotch.
- Grass only covers 40% of the park. The rest is considered ‘recreation area.’
- The jungle gym, knotted with children.
- White children, black children, red children, yellow children.
- The ducks that seemingly belong to the elderly are, in fact, adulterous.
- The ducks move to another group of people, to get their bread elsewhere.
- The children in the jungle gym; the elderly on the benches.
- Each bench a memorial to somebody older than the elderly.
Painter
- Ge Xiaoguang is now the official ‘author’ of Mao Zedong’s portrait at Tiananmen Gate.
- There have been others before him. There will be others after him.
- Due to weather conditions and pollution, Ge Xiaoguang must repaint this portrait.
- Other portraits used to hang in the square, but not anymore.
- Ge Xiaoguang knows the face of Mao better than he knows himself.
- When you look at light too long and afterwards, the light burns inside your own inner darkness.
- Does Mao burn inside Ge Xiaoguang’s inner darkness?
- Ge Xiaoguang insists the face changes: he likens the act of repainting like ‘reopening a door on history’.
- Think about the position of the painting, coordinating the painting with the atmosphere of Tiananmen Rostrum, the influence of light – in the square, in the mind.
- Will it be painted forever.