While decorating for Christmas, my nieces stopped mid–garland untangling to perform their new choreography to the ten-minute “All Too Well.” No one asked for it. They were just doing it. Full-body
There are two breeds of love in the world / but I forget what they are.
standing around in my underwear
in the kitchen Christmas Eve
Last week I arrived in Montreal with no particular address in mind.
It was August 26th and my lease started September 1st. A more intelligent being would point out that there may be a problem with
1:25like, I think they tolerate my family, or like they like us, because we're always at the deli
I’m steadily acquiring encyclopedic knowledge of the impacts of different medications and antidepressants on men’s dicks.
journal entry #3
the birds ministered from tall pines
our eyes were
sites of excavation effaced by inner winters
went blind
amid the gorge the
I. xaxaxaxa
I don’t consider myself esoteric or mystical, but while tidying my desk I found a little square
sticker with just the number 8 on it; I think it fell off the new t-shirt I was
See, I’m too stupid to write a poem.
Remember when I said this, that afternoon by the lake
in our purple & yellow short shorts,
His breath smells like spliff and orange juice and peanut butter. It’s delicious.
Levi’s High
My moods as blue
as these lake hues
Ass still looks hot in this
double denim though,
so fuck yous
Swatting flies
On my thighs
in the desert
Amor
Bouchon
Steak
At last, I texted him the truth: I have bipolar disorder. I’m in a hypomanic episode. I’m really not feeling well, I can’t stop crying. I’m sorry, I’m really sorry...
Revelers in various stages of undress, semi-dress, drag and fetishistic extravagance frolicked, tripping out on the music and their collective naughtiness.
That’s when she asked me if you were still part of our family.
I watched the Fassbinder film.. half in English, half in German..
I had no doubt my husband’s depression was the authentic article, just as I had no doubt that he used this depression irresponsibly, as leverage, a venal tactic, to flatter himself and defuse criticism and basically get every last fucking thing he wanted.
i am the leader, the captain, the general of my troops, and yet it doesn’t matter much to me whether i win or lose.
It’s impressive, I thought, to meet a person like this, but then if you make an effort to face the world then this is just the kind of thing that happens to you. I wondered if my clever friend was thinking the same.
She underlined the quote, “Anything can happen in life, especially nothing.”
I imagine the letter got stuck somewhere in the desert, and some camel ate it.
still, there was so much salt
in so many wounds
My recent ex was extra, but in a way I couldn’t quite explain. Sure, she had all the traits of a malignant narcissist but so does almost everyone I know.
life got stuck under the wheels and desire’s language smacked into cliché, death came as Chet Baker crooning love, almost blue
