I know I wouldn’t think this way if I’d made some effort to become a better person, but at this point, it’s too late. I’ve come to believe that when you choose a way of living, you need to commit to it like religion or it won’t stick.
Reward: $200. Reward: whatever you want. Reward: I will come get him in my pajamas, I will come get him from anywhere, I will come get him.
During the holiday of their second year, they were nineteen. He was celebrating finally being allowed to drive the old Land Rover his father once used. After dinner he drove her home.
Often have a fantasy of living My Year of Rest and Relaxation and need to remind myself this is not an aspirational book.
The air between his boys started going bad, no matter how long they tried to leave the windows open. They were getting tired of the motels and their poolside women. There were only so many sun-bleached bitches they could do before his boys wanted more.
She springs up, goes to her page, and sees hardly any fans left. The next session has started, but there is no one left in the waiting room. The ones who stay spit insults. She reads them, feels hurt, so she gets no pleasure from it.
Charm cripples our capacity for effective criticism, our will to demand change.
People in Utah spoke about modesty constantly
Literary agent
Never had one. I don't know any of their names.
Diabetic Ketoacidosis and Camus
There is no flight from light, no
solution to the absurd, when
through the ghost we are revived—
the shiny little sun-stars seeing out
like a
Joseph was my internship advisor at a public access TV station in Berkeley
This party is great, Maria, it’s really something special. You said this to our host as if she were our friend. Really, we’d known Maria for fifteen minutes and you already wanted to get into bed with her. You wanted a ménage à trois. This sounded stupid and French, but I wanted to get in bed with her too. Though my version of events wouldn’t involve you.
“Quality takes money,” she said.
Dancing had always been my weapon. I don’t let myself think.
It feels weird knowing that my parents stalk my art website as a way of seeing what I’m up to. It’s one thing to be naked in front of strangers… but to be naked in front of my parents…
The Kratom store felt like a doctor's office. A guy in a white shirt and jeans next to a slumped woman attended to us.
5. you are paralyzed like a deer in the middle of the road / a car is / a. hurtling towards you at full speed / b. disappearing into the distance
The first night I slept with R, he took Viagra and Adderall. He treated me to the sex marathon of my dreams and instantly cemented himself as the man at the top of my roster.
I took a 10mg edible and brushed my teeth in the bathroom at LAX that evening.
I was sick for four months, but it was not the kind of sick I was used to: it was a numbing contagion. Under darkened skies, I coughed up the particles of illness. I looked at the walls
