life is cheap ...
Eric Subpar
i am the machine that desires
and only in such desire
can i exist
i am the machine that desires
and only in such desire
can i exist
It’s not necessarily loneliness that I feel but rather a burgeoning propensity toward violence.
“Aren’t hot dogs a little, you know, phallacious?” Sam asked, the words rolling out of his mouth like marbles.
“I’m a Halloweenie.”
“I hate you,” he said under his breath, but just loud enough that he hoped she would hear him.
trying to recall
the newness of our sexual joy
I had come out just a year or two prior, and anal sex was new. Nobody taught me anything.
Pussy from guy thirsty for an indie press
Pussy from guy who needs psychoanalysis
Oh. No. I prefer fat men and fingernail clippers.
i grew tired of bukowski's penis / even deer looked plastic
I taste cigarette in her mouth.
When we met, I was dazzled by how easily she surrendered to her desire. She’d wake up late and order breakfast from the store down the street, roll in late to work and not think twice.
I went in every Manhattan bookstore looking for The Cows by Lydia Davis.
Lippens, like most writers and artists in general, occupies this space slightly distanced from the commotion of the world.
I can’t read in Farsi but I taught him how to say kiss, my flower, small, my heart and now the florists know
We had a shared Google Doc titled ‘Ground rules for this relationship’.
my first hospitalization was at 13 after swallowing a bottle of Tylenol.
in navigating the intensely competitive, hierarchical world of ‘online indie lit’ I wedded this lust with near-constant envy, joy at others’ failures and bitterness at their success,
I have the feeling that, if she wished, Tiff could control me entirely through simple elbow voodoo; just a loose jet-lagged tilt and I would fall to the floor, start foaming at the mouth.
Fought so hard to be this self— this man in front of you. I’m free to wear pink and piss in the urinal.
8: Perhaps we’ve misheard. Perhaps our facility with language will lead to our downfall. Perhaps the public lauding of our own personas is parasitic and causes continuous displacement.