My Wife Has Bad Dreams About David Koresh Again
Waco flutters her wings and your stupid
match goes out. I told you we never
should have named a Lovebird
after that city. And that cage
of our old toothbrushes and VHS’s
of old breaking news had escape
written all over it. We should have
made our own decisions, seen advice
for what it was: a pomegranate
picked clean, even of its pith.
Let’s face it:
we hung ourselves with a love
we forced silk upon, and all its
attendant cocoons. In one, eHarmony
breaks a harp string, and therefore
loses a thumb. Let it, and us,
become peaches again, and if not
peaches, then perches to clawfeet
sticky with oranges, to a feather
that was never light, was never
light as. At a certain point,
no sex becomes a little Branch Davidian,
I’m sorry to say, in spite of your drool
and moans. That point, I’m guessing
is a dyslexic prophet with coffeecup
glasses, burning to embers
in a cavernous ranch. In fire, you mutter,
is a free haircut, an excuse to spill
the Chardonnay. I say, you can’t
put out a fire with goat’s milk,
but your mother insisted
it’s healthier. With a hoe
let’s till our kiss, dig up its red
decoder ring, prosciutto rind,
stairmaster. Let’s find its last grape
and severed fin, resting flat as a graham
cracker at the bottom of the world’s
bathtub. Where, you ask,
are the silver drains? I want
to say something about our hearts
but am afraid that’s the wrong answer.
Hoses, are more like it. Your mother,
the revisionist sleeping
on the couch, insisted also that
pomegranates are blue, that drowning,
to the fish, means birth.
Innuendo
The frog in the jogging suit, this
cardiac arrest. How did his socks
stay dry, the Boneyard Creek
avoid ridicule as a child? You know
how creeks are. In winter, the swallows
stop their hearts, bury themselves
in the thinnest ice. There’s
something to say about the walnut
here, dead in its shell. Nutmeat,
Juglans, papery husk. The bird
who flew in from Gaul. The salts
in our mouths can’t resist the cracking
resurrection, Himalayan pink
and coarse as your mother’s gravy. All sorts
of things happen when we’re
gone: You’ve become a world-
class fly-eater, the strange organ
of a bird we mistook for dead.
The tongue as leash, and leashed.
The instant oatmeal that now
wants to take its time. I’m
wearing my flag pants.
The stripes are jumping.
Ontonagon
Here, dialectics are a gamebird, or
their parts. Pheasant breast, squab
tongue, this bluish liver of the quail.
Squawk! you say, and the wind keeps
our vitals in check, even through
these jackets—Blue Songstress, Corn
Smut, Raven Shit—zipped up and filled
impossibly with down.
There’s a foxfire in the labia of the bee,
you say, and later, I’ll know you’re
deconstructing indigenous and river
mouth, swing bridge and baby names,
but now, looking up, without a single die,
it’s all I can do
to mistake this for another
call of another kind
of bird.
Boundaries: Playing Doctor with Andromeda
When a mother barks, that’s
the beginning of the end. This
is how leash is the saddest
walk in the world, our tongues
hanging in the wind,
our clothesline mouths. Your father,
like my father, will microwave us
omelets. The kind that need
plenty of ketchup, that allow
the mosquito the designation
of benefit. This kitchen is full
of them. Between bites, you say,
even the mosquito has a womb.
Tonight, we name it Manny
after your mother’s goldfish.
In this egg, is the yellow
of his tailfin, never once slapping
the bowl’s glass. This is how
a fish lives on a nightstand—
next to reading glasses, an unread
book. A book, if the doctor
is right, she’ll never read. You
should know this: It’s tough
to come home after bathing
in the Hondo River, how the train
tracks here are ignored, tough
after showering in a theater
of lawn-and-leaf bags. This
domesticity—quiet as an egg,
loud as the mosquito—never asks
who will be the one to give
our mothers their shots, to feed
their three drifting dogs ground
beef and rice. Kiss me and pray
it still works. That we still hide
explosion in our bodies. The good
kind. Years ago, when we could
live elsewhere, the stars
were brighter than breakfast, but
Andromeda caught the heartworm.
This is how an omelet fails.
She used to send us grapefruit.