I shake someone’s hands in my dreams,
All knuckles.
Next night i was woodworking and built a table straight from the tree,
 carving its veins into  fancy  designs.
I fall asleep in a bed but  start violently flipping cars down yellow valley
inside the doors, my body  is a vehicle test driving dummy.
When i remove myself from each crash unfazed, i will flip the car back over and continue driving down the valley where i will flip this car again.
just to turn
it
Right side up and drive down that yellow valley.
I’ve had this dream so many times now that my mind introduced a new act into the storyline,
a goose will be staring at me from the woods when i open the door and turn to my left.
Right before
The scene where
 i flip the car back over onto its wheels. And you know whats next.
Im driving.
It was The marriage omen goose, that absolved me to
never have this dream again.

I  think of the farm-acy
Where i am going to build
The house that was barely put together
By us not knowers, In the slanted woods
Next to fathers parents' home.
I want to grow our kid memories here
in the garden i’ll plant,
With the rosemary and lavender bushes.
I did sleep in a room when i was a child where shadows cross the walls,
most night s.
There were all these portraits of me hung on the walls and they would dance on the frames,
 the shadow people that spiritually strapped my body to the mattress.
Choked up my throat, and silenced me to their nightly show.
Doctors call it Sleep paralysis cause
A haunted bedroom is only make believe.

Sometimes the rain comes down at the same time the suns out.
growing up my mama would say its the devil beating his wife
I never asked why , knowing
that One day i  learned its cause the devil is angry that
 god
had
made
 Another ,
 beautiful, day.

I once told you I created a metaphor for our relationship while thinking about a plastic couch cover.
Cause you were working so hard to protect something,
Like a sofa that could never be sat on for its purpose –
comfort.
All i asked was that you take the plastic cover off and enjoy it.